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2010-08-14T20:08:00.002+08:00

:D

happy belated birthday to 水蛇 and 火狗

all the best for promos!

2010-03-16T21:55:00.003+08:00

Ahahahaha!
JUNG YONG HWA IS IRRESISTIBLE
PLEASE SUPPORT CN BLUE :D

2010-01-02T14:34:00.002+08:00

hey due to overwhelming request, I shall post again! yeah!!!
I wanna thank many people for making the past 2 years fulfilling and memorable for me. Everything started on the right note 2 years ago. And looking back now, I realised it is you guys that shaped me into who I am now, who restored my innocence and exposed my idealistic side. That is the reason to which I don't want a change. I hope the next 2 years can be equally smooth sailing for me, and yeah, I am a bit scared of posting this. I think zy is right, I was more outgoing last time.

2009-12-31T15:52:00.001+08:00

yoyoyo people!
i am in 5c46 next year :D

i have to
no matter what

jiayou jiayou!

2009-11-23T20:20:00.001+08:00

hehehehehe
enjoying my holiday :D
yay!
so happy
hahahahaha
meowwwwwwww
wooooooooooo
hooooooo
heeee
toot
hiahiahia

byebye

2009-10-09T14:58:00.002+08:00

Didn't feel anything right after e paper
maybe except for a bit of disappointment?

Anyway, I really feel it now
everything seems different after eoy
and my computer will be a happy boy again!
:D

2009-10-07T13:09:00.002+08:00

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

T.T

I dont wanna say bye to you, dear!
I want you to stay on my report book forever.

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2009-05-24T16:46:00.002+08:00

yo!
im a Sanguine and Phlegmatic(inner self)
:D
its spring and winter, the season which i was born in
:D

weaknesses:
Compulsive talker
Exaggerates and elaborates
Dwells on trivia
Can't remember names
Scares others off
Too happy for some
Has restless energy
Egotistical
Blusters and complains
Naive, gets taken in
Has loud voice and laugh
Controlled by circumstances
Gets angry easily
Seems phony to some
Never Grows Up
Repeats stories

strengths
(phlegmatic):
Low-key personality
Easygoing and relaxed
Calm, cool and collected
Patient well balanced
Consistent life
Quiet but witty
Sympathetic and kind
Keeps emotions hidden
Happily reconciled to life
All-purpose person
Enjoys watching people
(sanguine)
Appealing personality
Talkative, Storyteller
Life of the Party
Good sense of humor
Memory for color
Physically holds on to listener
Emotional and demonstrative
Enthusiastic and expressive
Cheerful and bubbling over
Curious
Good on stage
Wide-eyed and innocent
Lives in the present
Changeable disposition
Sincere at heart
Always a child

i somewhat agree to the weaknesses of phlegmatic
but im not gonna put up here
its my inner self the part which i dont want anyone to know

2009-05-09T14:29:00.002+08:00

they look alike dont they :D

the features!!!

yeah

im very happy recently

damn happy

for no reason

actly there are

many!\

yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo

life is so great

2009-04-26T18:34:00.003+08:00

she is a korean actress

i just took photo with her :D

2009-04-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

:D
:D
:D
:D
:D

i'm just feeling happy
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D

hahahahaahah!!!

jiayou!
jiayou!
jiayou!
jiayou!
jiayou!

extremely post

:D
:D
:D
:D
:D

something(s) is(are) coming back into me!
and I love it.
thank you life
:D

2009-04-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

im so fortunate to be in here

its a long forgotten truth
but i've dig it up from the very bottom of history
now examine it.

i've been slacking and taking in everything for granted
i've not been making any effort and contribution to it
and yet im wanting sth in return
which sounds very naive

okay
so from this moment onwards
i must put its interest at heart
never do sth that will hurt it
and put in my very limited amt of effort to beautify it
at least not against it

this is meant for myself
so you do not need to understand.

2009-04-05T15:32:00.001+08:00

I'm an INTP!!!
:D

so smart :D

Charles Darwin, scientist (Origin of the Species)
Rene Descartes, mathematician and philosopher
Albert Einstein, physicist
William Harvey, pioneer in human physiology
Sir Isaac Newton, physicist

Primary Axis: Introverted Thinking - Extraverted Intuition
The INTP is above all a thinker and his inner (private) world is a place governed by a strong sense of logical structure. Every experience is to be rigorously analysed, the task of the INTP's mind is to fit each encountered idea or experience into a larger structure defined by logic. For here is the central goal of the INTP: to understand and seek truth. The experience of anything takes a back seat. The INTP is not interested in experiences themselves but is far more fascinated by concepts. The drive to understand things that are not yet understood is a very powerful force in the life of an INTP. Where the Ti preference is strong, this drive can override the experiential element so strongly that the INTP will become quickly bored with anything that he has successfully analysed to the point of understanding it. Once understood, it has nothing left to offer, once the satisfaction which comes with achieving the goal of understanding diminishes. Indeed, most primary interests of an INTP are things which he cannot fully understand, usually because they are highly complex or have some exotic, mystical element that does not yield to analysis. This is the real reason why INTPs are drawn to complexity: anything simple is too quickly understood and cannot hold the fascination for long. Similarly, proficiency in any area (which requires continual practice after understanding) is not such a driving force as it might be for NTJs, for example. While a judging NT will often seek to become master of his field, an INTP is satisfied by analysing it alone. The latter is often more of dabbler with ideas which leads me on to his second crucial aspect: detachment.
The Ti-Ne axis leads to a curious overriding desire to observe from a detached position, indicating the preference for intuitive perception with respect to external things. Since accurate analysis needs to avoid becoming hampered with details or being influenced by the actions of others, the INTP invariably seeks to withdraw, at least in spirit, from the situation being considered. This detachment can sometimes be so marked that he will readily see himself as a neutral observer having no personal association with that going on around him (unless forced to become directly involved through an attack on his principles). The INTP enjoys speculating about how a news item (for example) might be received by other people or how a point of view might offend certain types of people and be supported by yet other types; but to have a point of view of his own rarely seems relevant! This also indicates that Feeling is his least developed function. The argument may even be made that "points of view" and "opinions" are irrelevant since only objective truth counts. In reality, INTPs can often become far less objective than they think they ought to be: precisely at those times when the under-developed Feeling gnaws at his being.

Dominant Function: Introverted Thinking
Now looking specifically at first the Ti, the principle of detachment even encompasses how an INTP views himself. He may analyse his own thought processes as if his mind and body were separate from his conscious self. In wanting to understand his reactions to things, he may treat himself, even his own thoughts, as subjects for experiment. At the extreme end of the scale, where Ti is very dominant, the ultimate goal of understanding the world with total clarity must be achieved through total detachment from everything. Fortunately, Ti never dominates over the other 3 preferences to such an extent that such an unhealthy state is reached.
Where detachment ceases is when someone makes an illogical statement or violates one of the INTPs principles. At such a point, the INTP feels the instant drive to provide for clarity. This is his Mission; to be the provider of clarity, and is often suspicious that he is the only person capable of this task. Here, the INTP risks being seen as over-critical, aloof and arrogant. On the whole, however, While proficiency may not be a central goal, competence always is. The difference here may be subtle, but ireal arrogance is rare for INTPs for their desire is not to dominate others but simply to observe, analyse and clarify. Once the point has been clarified, the INTP withdraws quickly, for he prefers not to be in the limelight unless absolutely necessary. Hence, for most of the time, INTPs are easy-going and will fit in to others' needs, taking up the role of observer again.
It is important. If an INTP decides to learn a skill, then it is very important for him that he reaches a sufficient level so that basic errors can be avoided. Errors made by others are to be expected and can be criticised. But errors made by oneself attack the very root of the person, which is ultimately about rationality, logic and truth. INTPs hate to think of themselves being in any way inadequate, at least in areas that are important to them. So, as soon as he puts himself behind some task, then he must achieve competency. But that is as far as it goes. Refined competency requires too much effort and has little attraction. It would require practice and that usually bores an INTP. Hence, it is common to see INTPs dabbling at many things, achieving competency, just enough to prove to themselves that they could become more proficient if they wished, but rarely actually bothering to refine their skills further. This is a point at which we begin to get a feel for the workings of iNtuition backing up Thinking. The INTP has a whole set of skills which he knows that he would be proficient at, yet other people may know little of this. He is satisfied with the knowledge that he has these skills but often sees no requirement to demonstrate this to others, an indication of the strong Ti nature.
Related to this is the central aspect of independence. INTP's put great weight on being individuals and essentially different from other people, who they often view as being too alike and too interdependent. Independence touches on many aspects. One is the competency aspect above. When he is interested in something, then the INTP must be competent in it. But there are many things which don't interest him, and some of these will be things that others may be very competent in and where it may be assumed that everyone should be competent in them. The INTP usually applies the word "irrelevant" to such things: that is his excuse for any lack of competency in any field. And if he originally wished to achieve something, but failed, then it must be because was in fact irrelevant! The opinions of others are rarely given much weight in themselves. All opinions must get filtered through an analysis procedure to test for viability. No title or claim of being an "expert" carries any weight with an INTP. All people, big or small, are subject to an identical scrutiny. The INTP sees himself as the independent arbiter, whether a fair claim or not. However, when someone has proved his credentials through having sensible opinions, he will be afforded great respect by the INTP. Most respected of all are those who are not only sensible but also innovative. Intelligence is above all highly prized.(very very true!)
Independence, derived primarily from strongly introverted Thinking, leads to perhaps the most difficult aspect (for others) of the INTP, namely stubbornness. If an INTP is pushed into doing something he will automatically resist. The reason for the resistance is simply that any action must first be filtered by the Ti, guided by the Ne. He must be given the chance to reach an independent decision, approving or rejecting the action. Hence, he must withdraw to allow the analysis process to work. If withdrawal is not allowed then stubborn resistance is the inevitable result. However, others may not always find the INTP excessively stubborn, since the decision-making process can sometimes be rapidly accelerated when intuition takes the upper hand. The best way to get an INTP to do something is to suggest the idea as an option and let him sleep on it. Ultimately, the INTP must always believe that it is his decision. Once he is satisfied that the decision was independently reached, then he is content.
A further result of the Ti function is the concept, lived out by many an INTP, that knowledge is everything. They tend to believe that information is the key to life. All mistakes can be avoided by having the right information at the right time. This has at least a certain logic about it. Where they differ from other temperaments (especially from SP types) is that a large gap may exist between knowing and doing. To know is everything, to do is a lower order necessity, if it is necessary at all. This breeds the potential for lazy aloofness. The INTP is often satisfied simply by knowing that he could do something if he wished. This also leads to the danger of overestimating one's capabilities and losing a grip on reality. Here is an aspect where INTP and ENTP types differ strongly. The latter, with dominant iNtuition, are much more driven by shaping the world according to their ideas, ie. thinking supports and subordinates doing. For the INTP, doing supports and subordinates thinking.
Finally, the dominant Ti function means that the INTP takes his interests and beliefs very seriously. Honesty and directness when explaining these interests are usually displayed. INTPs detest facades (cant stand even a little) and particulary dislike people who exhibit them. Equally, those kind of people also dislike INTPs and avoid them at all cost, for they know that the INTP will see right through them. (yes im talking about u) The INTP's serious nature also makes them almost immune to mockery and being made fun of, at least when face to face with their mocker. If someone attempts to make a sarcastic, mocking comment about an interest of an INTP, the latter will defend himself with a pure, almost naive seriousness, explaining his position with a severe exactness, wielding his words like swords. This almost always disarms the mocker who does not expect such a penetrating defence. The INTPs defence usually also contains a subtle but biting attack thrown back in the mocker's face, chiefly because the INTP cannot entirely hide the fact that he believes his opponent to be stupid. (omg how true!!!) Such confrontations might develop rapidly into physical ones, a danger that the INTP should be aware of. This ability to wield words with cutting precision is one of the INTP's greatest assests, but equally one of his most deadly traits. He is capable of using words creatively to penetrate deep into the understanding of a subject, but if not checked and wielded carelessly, his words can become highly destructive, especially where the Feeling function is heavily suppressed.
Secondary Function: Extraverted Intuition
Intuition is a mode of perception which focusses on the larger picture, the connections between objects, on the possibilities rather than the facts. When this is extraverted (Ne), the act of intuitive perception grapples with the world itself in order to understand it and its chief goal is to derive meaning. The INTP is sometimes referred to as the architect. The world is an object of study and possibilities for changing and shaping it according to the schemes assessed by the Ti core are derived from intuition. If his introversion is strong, however, then his schemes tend to remain private and speculative: the world remains an intellectual object of study but his architectural plans may not actually be put into practice. The constructor/inventor ENTP, on the other hand, with whom the Ne is dominant, aggressively grapples with and shapes the world, showing little reticence. The INTP is of the same spirit, but his constructive nature is likely to take shape within more private hobbies and less likely to directly involve others.
Where the extraversion of the iNtuition function becomes obvious is during discussions, especially heated ones. In contrast to INTJs, an INTP will often make controversial, speculative points of argument, often annoying the discussion-partner, and make them in such a way as to leave the impression that he is very serious about what he says. In reality, the INTP is not actually even certain himself whether he really stands by what he is saying, but his Ne strongly suggests that there must be a core of truth there. The purpose then of his outspoken style of argument is to sharpen his own intuitive understanding by testing the reaction of the listener, and indeed to examine the logic of his own arguments in real time while speaking them out. On occasion, INTPs may seem brash and tactless, but for themselves it is part of their way of getting closer to the truth. This is another aspect of the Ne grappling with the external world (in this case discussion with another) to understand it. The Ne provides the raw material for the Ti core to analyse. The INTJ, on the other hand, with Ni dominant and Te as secondary, tends to avoid letting uncertain speculative ideas out in the open: he presents a more considered structured viewpoint to the world while holding his private thoughts free for intuitive reasoning. The INTJ resembles a chess player, ruminating on the possibilites and then making decisive accurate moves. INTP played life as chess, he would keep wishing to modify the allowed-move-properties of his various pieces to optimise his strategy, find that that isn't allowed, and ask to start the game afresh! The ENTP chess player would indeed modify the rules to his advantage and complain that the standard rules were inadequate! The ENTJ would play by the standard rules but insist on making the moves for his opponent as well !
Extraverted iNtuition has a strong influence on how the INTP views his own interaction If the with others. It is the Ne above all that the INTP most loves to show others. He is therefore happy to be seen as somewhat eccentric, innovative and perceptive. In dreaming about what he would like to become or achieve, his goals are invariably highly individualistic. He must become the composer, the solo performer, the genius scientist who makes the unique discovery. If he is to be noticed at all, then he must be centre stage. If he can't be centre stage in an area of interest, then he must withdraw and resort to vitriolic criticism. But in all areas which interest him less he happily leaves to others and observes. With an INTP it is either all or nothing. Half-efforts he dislikes just as much as he dislikes the restrictions of teamwork and co-operation.
Humour is another aspect which marks out the INTP. He can readily dream up jokes about almost any situation. Taking things out of context is the chief source of humour and many an INTP is a Monty Pythonite. The Ne is the engine and source of this joke-generator. Needless to say, the humour of an INTP can be pretty zany and warped and may not be understood easily by others. The problem is that the Ne concepts for jokes are put into a structure only by the Ti. Hence, the humour can become black and tactless, having felt little Feeling input. Funnily enough, INTPs are dreadful tellers of jokes (which seems to be more the domain of those with Se), perhaps because they pay too little attention to detail when speaking spontaneously. If you see someone smirking and laughing at some private thought, without any obvious reason, he's probably an INTP. INTPs may however make good comedy writers, with the humour of Woody Allen being particularly liked.
The preference for intuitive perception means that INTPs dislike having their lives planned. They feel a distinct unease before most fixed appointments and cannot fully relax until the scheduled event is over, or at least in progress. However, the dreaded event is usually far less of a problem than had been imagined and usually brings with it a sense of satisfaction. Action is therefore the saving grace of an INTP, for a sense of achievement usually outweighs the earlier apprehension. Social appointments can also be greatly enjoyed, once they are underway. But joyful anticipation is rarely experienced beforehand, unless the event is central to the INTP's fields of interest. The source of the unease is simply the feeling that a planned schedule inhibits and robs the INTP of freedom. It is also a subordination to the plans of others which the independent INTP resists. Faithfully helping others is not a problem, however, but he must feel in control of his decision to subordinate or not.
INTPs tend to be rather mistrusting of people and are rather sceptical. However, a lot of their trust is based on what the Ne function tells them about somebody. This can lead to a naivity and sometimes to prejudices based on intuitive perceptions of appearence and style. People can be a problem for INTPs: on the one hand they are fascinated by some types of people, especially more extraverted individuals, but a fear of irrational behaviour in others usually leads to caution. Friendship with INTPs develops at a pace which depends considerably on the temperament of the other person. INTPs dislike making the first move and tend to mirror the emotional content of the other person. A jolly person will quickly bring the INTP out of his shell, as much as that is possible, while a serious person will find a serious INTP looking back at him. In this sense, INTPs preference for intuitive perception (rather than action) with respect to people results in them resembling a chameleon. The INTP can fit into many different modes of behaviour, even contradictory ones, in order to get into the mindset of the other person. The goal is to gain enough intuitive data to analyse and assess the person. In doing this, the INTP remains somewhat reserved, never wholly identifying himself with his surroundings. As chameleons, INTPs are therefore approachable and open, unless the Ne tells the INTP that the other person is a type he doesn't like, (yes yes yes!) in which case the reserved attitude may become too obvious. The chameleon behaviour can be particularly strong when discussing something. The INTP may even argue something that he doesn't really believe himself. Sometimes it is for the intellectual stimulation that comes with the challenge of arguing from a variety of standpoints. Otherwise, it may be to avoid early conflict before the situation has been fully assessed. Chameleons hide their true selves. INTPs do not do this cynically, or indeed all the time, but it is a result of the strong desire to remain detached and observe.
However, where friendship develops rapidly, almost instantly, is when an INTP meets another INTP or similar temperament. Communication between such people can become extremely intense, leaving outsiders baffled. When two INTPs get togther, watch out! All forms of social graces and host-guest protocols become irrelevant. Both want only to share concepts and interests and absorb the intellectual stimulation of the other. Interruption of this process by any social necessity is undesired and annoying. Often the pair will become oblivious to everything around them and this may seem almost comical to an outsider. Introductory greetings such as "how are you?" may just be given and received with nonchalant disinterest. Conversations are more likely to open with something like: "Hi, I think I've worked out how changes in the Borg's command protocols can be routed through sub-space without compromising their universal teleconnectivity!", knowing that the other person knows exactly what he's on about. Later, the host may offer the guest a drink after an hour of discussing the latest developments in computer technology, and the guest may then notice that he is thirsty. In most cases however, INTPs have been groomed by other types into accomodating themselves into the social world, so that even amongst themselves a minimal level of social niceties will be given. Favourite topics of discussion are science and science-fiction, music, computers and any abstract concept with which one is currently fascinated by.
One-to-one conversation is preferred in almost every situation. In a group situation, INTPs are sensitive to whether they believe they will be listened to or not. If a dominant (strongly extraverted and loud) person is present, the INTP will withdraw and sulk, believing the dominant person to be a brute. If an INTP speaks, he must be listened to, for he believes his spoken opinions to be important. If not, he withdraws (at least in spirit) and assumes that the people who do not listen lack intelligence. Hence, INTPs make very poor leaders, for they depend too much on the attitudes of others. This is one of the negative sides of the Ne function. INTPs tend to jump to intuitive conclusions, can be fatalistic and have little perseverence. On the other hand, they can make very good assistants to leaders, provided they and the leader are of one mind, for their perceptive analysis can give the leadership useful insights which they may overlook, being too busy with leading. Indeed, INTPs are often glad when someone else takes over the lead, again providing the leader is of the same mind. An INTPs ideal is to provide all the ideas for a project and have a charismatic leader, who agrees with him, carry them out. The only area in which an INTP will carry out his own ideas to completion is in his personal interest world, where other people are not involved. For this reason, INTPs are fascinated by computer technology as well as the Internet which gives him a voice that he would not otherwise have. Many of the most dedicated Computer Freaks are INTPs. Ultimately, INTPs tend to trust machines more than they trust people and may feel particularly at home in the realm of cybernetics.
The Ne-Ti axis is a particularly useful configuration for an interest in Science Fiction. The Ne provides a fascination for abstract ideas while the Ti loves analysing the scientific concepts presented. Many an INTP is a Trekkie, particularly because Star Trek pays a great deal of attention to logical detail. Unlike much of the general population, however, INTPs take such science fiction series extremely seriously, showing the great relative importance attached to the world of ideas. Examples of fictional characters who INTPs have a natural affinity for are Avon (Blake's Seven), Data (Star Trek: TNG) and Seven of Nine (Voyager).
General role models for INTPs are individualistic, creative and perhaps enigmatic people. Innovative free-thinkers who follow their own new paths are usually greatly respected. Famous historical figures who attract the INTP's greatest respect are scientists, composers, inventors and, in society, revolutionary leaders and noble visionaries who bring about major change. Above all, individualism is the key factor, while vision is the most highly prized asset.
The Ne-Ti axis also leads to a curious duality in the thinking of the INTP. The dominant Ti core tends to assume the role of a controller and organiser of his life, while the Ne behaves like a free spirit, almost childlike in its enthusiasm. The INTP tends to experience these two forces as an almost continuous tug-of-war, with neither ever quite gaining the upper hand. He is not disturbed by this duality and can view it with wistful humour. If he has been free-spiriting for any length of time, he soon feels duty bound to analyse his behaviour and systematise it. While if he has been in an analytical mode for a while, he will soon decide that he can do what he wants freely after all. It is a yo-yo situation. Generally, INTPs have a very strong requirement to keep their external, social world as simple and as uncluttered as they can so that they can focus as much energy as possible on their internal world of system analysis and theoretizing. Hence, they tend to be amongst the least demanding and least complicated of all types when interacting with others. They prefer to let the world flow by: to observe the waves being made by others, but to make none themselves. When socializing, the Ne mode dominates, unless a discussion starts up involving the INTP in which case the Ti largely takes over. In their private world it is of course the Ti that dominates.

Tertiary Function: Introverted Sensing
The Sensing function is the mode of perceiving which gathers information from facts, details and objects. When this function is strongly introverted, Si, the focus moves away from external details and is primarly concerned with personal, introspective detail. The experience of the present is not central in itself, as with Se. Rather the focus is on how the present evokes remembered earlier experiences. The key outworking of the Si function is then a concern with memories of the past. INTPs typically have an acute awareness of the passage of past times. Sequences of past events can assume a remarkable solidity in their thinking, while most INTPs have very good memories. Indeed, the sensing function is usually very well developed in its strongly Si mode and forms a strong partnership with the Ti core. Hence, the internal world of the INTP is a world of complex, detailed structure, well organized and methodically kept in order. When an INTP focusses on specific details then he has a very sharp eye for them and will not lose sight of them.
On the other hand, one of the more serious weaknesses of an INTP is that the sensing function makes little inroads out into the external world. INTPs are usually oblivious to external details unless something forces them to take notice. When an INTP goes into a new room, or walks through a city street, he is blind to much of the detail that people with an Se function would see immediately. The INTP always tries to get a feel for the big picture, using his Ne, and habitually ignores all detail. Of course, objects of interest will be seen as a matter of course and he can choose to concentrate and focus on them, but it is remarkable how much he still overlooks. And those objects he does happen to notice will belong to a small set of things that he is interested in anyway. Many other objects would only be noticed if another person points them out to him.
When an INTP lives alone, his home is usually spartan and utility-oriented. There will be little or no decorative objects, electronic equipement will be in abundance and the importance of any object will depend only on its usefulness. The general style of the home is largely irrelevant. When an object is put aside, not to be returned to for a while, it will lie fully ignored until used again. Objects which lie unmoved for more than about 48 hours usually become invisible to the INTP, until such time as he has a use for them again. For other temperaments whose need for tidiness and order in a house is strong, this lack of concern in this area may seem despairing. For the INTP, however, no problem exists. Corners of rooms, table tops and cupboards may become cluttered with objects, but while they don't move they remain effectively invisible and are unimportant. Indeed, less mature INTPs have a reluctance to move objects at all, for the desire to remain detached and not physically interact with the world can be strong. The one thing that will force an INTP to tidy his home radically, even when alone, is when the clutter eventually gets in his way and hinders some activity. Often, however, the offending objects will merely be moved into another corner where they can spend some more weeks being invisible. When an INTP lives with a partner and perhaps has a family, he learns the necessity of focussing on the details of tidiness. This is not usually difficult, since tidying a house is an activity which can be clearly defined and, hence, the INTP can focus on it by treating it as systematic work.
Introverted Sensing often plays an important role in the private world of the INTP. When he visits a place, whether new or already known, his Si function gives an overriding concern for the atmosphere or mood of the place. In his subconscious, he connects the present experiences of his surroundings with memories of his past, sometimes deep past. A sense of history, of universality, is almost always invoked. When on holiday, the INTP wants to experience above all the ambience of each location. Specific details in the present are relatively unimportant and will not be well remembered. However, the atmosphere or mood will be remembered long after, as though it were a solid object. Since people encountered on a holiday usually count as details, unless more personal contact develops, the INTP tends to be drawn more to lonely, isolated places where atmosphere is less disturbed. Nevertheless, the presence of people does add its own ambience which can also be appreciated considerably. The net result of this concern for past experiences and of mood/atmosphere is that INTPs belong centrally to those types referred to as melancolic. The INTP melancolic is typically drawn to wild polar expanses, to mountain ranges and all places on the edges of civilisation. Whatever his particular yearning might actually be, it has a common root. The homeland of the INTP's psyche is a small and cosy community, isolated in the middle of a vast expanse of wilderness.
Because the present is inextricably linked to a sense of the past, INTPs tend to hoard items which help solidify the connection to the past. They find it very difficult to let go of anything they have collected (or indeed created) and which may have a nostalgic meaning. They assume that any object which is of interest now is bound to remain of interest for the rest of their lives. This emphasizes a strong sense of universality in the progression of time, just as it emphasizes the seriousness with which INTPs approach their interests. Frivolity is not in their vocabulary. INTPs often love keeping lists and databases in areas of interest, especially when the lists are associated with things of the past. Collecting periodical magazines or other media of interest is also a very common INTP trait. Such a collection is usually taken very seriously. Yet the collective whole, considered as a temporal rather than spatial object, always assumes more importance in the mind of the INTP than the objects forming the collection themselves. Hence, INTPs are collectors, but they are collecters for whom the objects themselves are only important in so far as they evoke a connection to past events, in so far as they yield a nostalgic mood. The curious problem with any collection of an INTP is that he typically fails to enjoy it in the here and now. Items are stored away so that they can evoke this time at some point in the future, but such a point often never occurs. It may never occur because INTPs are always so mentally active that they continually delve into new interests, and continue to hoard items relating to these, so that they rarely allow themselves enough time to reflect on the ever expanding library of their past. The interests of an INTP would be enough to occupy him for several lifetimes if that were possible.
Photography is a classic interest of the INTP, which depends strongly on the Si - Ne combination, as well as on Ti for attention to technical detail. Landscape photography, for example, is the art of conveying a sense of mood/atmosphere to the viewer (Si). The correct employment of lenses, filters etc. brings out the Ti core, while the enjoyment of seeing the world as an fascinating varied object to be observed and captured in the best possible way brings out the Ne-Ti architect. Photos are also a way of capturing the present to evoke a sense of past in the future (Si). When involved in portrait or people photography, the INTP will also be primarily concerned with the mood conveyed by the person in the eye of the lens. Quality photographic skill, as well as an intrinsic feel for imagery, is usually second nature to the INTP and can make a good career choice. When viewing photographic images, say in magazines, the overriding concern is for how the photo is conveyed; its mood, its colour, contrast and shading usages, its perspectives and image quality. However, the actual subject of the image, which other types are likely to concentrate on first, takes a back seat unless it is unavoidably dramatic. Hence, INTPs may convey a very critical and impersonal approach in discussing images, which could lead to offence in some situations.
Another area of interest common to INTPs, where Si has a strong influence, is Music. INTPs are usually fascinated by music and may have deep and wide-ranging tastes. Indeed, each of their three main functions (Ti, Ne, Si) plays a role in the enjoyment of music, and indeed music is a key interest for bringing out the feeling shadow of the INTP. Si itself brings a fascination for mood and atmosphere in music as well as for a strong sense of personal nostalgia. INTPs are therefore often keen on melancolic minor-key music in which an introspective and/or esoteric mood is conveyed. Equally, INTPs enjoy hearing music that they heard and enjoyed when younger (provided they can still appreciate it now) and yearn for the sense of nostalgia that it yields. INTPs are also drawn to complexly structured music, thanks to their Ti core. An appreciation of modern classical music, as well as perhaps contemporary jazz, is therefore common with them. Such music types are usually too complex to be understood after a single hearing, which hence provides excellent material for analysis, exciting the INTP no end. Once the basic developmental structure of the music has been assessed, Ne provides the impetus to derive a general meaning of the piece. What does the composer wish to convey, for example? Why was that particular development chosen? Indeed, the Ne is usually hard at work during listening sessions, trying to grasp the meanings behind the often fascinating combinations of sound-world evocations, structural developments and nostalgic impressions.
When the Ti core dominates the choice of music to listen to, the need for intellectual stimulation derived from complex structures and sounds will override concerns for cultured harmony. Hence, INTPs are often drawn to dissonance. Indeed, they may even thoroughly strive for dissonant sound worlds. When in such moods, consonant harmonies, especially of the three-chord-melody variety, are dismissed as boring and uninspired. If an INTP is forced to listen to simple harmonic music for a while, he usually can't wait to feel the relief provided by a few minutes of pure dissonance. The ideal music for the Ti core might be typically a modern symphony, with a complex, but analysable structure, with a rich and varied sound world, predominantly dissonant but with sections of melodic motifs to provide solidity. Examples of modern classical composers who particularly speak to the Ti core might be Simpson, Arnold, Holmboe, Maxwell-Davies and Shostakovich.
However, feeding the Ti core alone with music will rarely satisfy an INTP for long. Where music really inspires in when the Si function is brought into the picture. Generally, INTPs are fascinated by atmospheres evoked by music. Examples of modern classical composers whose music speaks more to the Si-melancoly through sound-world evocation might be Bax, Tavener, Pärt, Szymanowski and Rautavaara. Some elements of world-music also speak strongly to the Si-melancoly. INTPs may be interested in the Folk musics of eastern Europe and India, for example. The role played by the Si function is shared by SJ types, so that INTPs may find a common musical bond with some SJs in this area. Indeed, INTPs often feel at ease with SJs, especially their near-shadow xSFJ types. The SJ's guardian instincts usually help the INTP to feel at ease, while the tradition-based predictability of the SJ approach to life helps the INTP to know where he stands, giving him the space he needs to relax. Although the most intense communicative friendships may develop with fellow NTs, some extraverted intuitive types may overstress the INTP by being too dominant and unpredictable, extracting too much energy from the Ti core.
Ultimately, however, music forms a vital, central role in awaking the underdeveloped Fe shadow in the life of an INTP. It is undoutedly Fe that gives the INTP the life-spark to introduce a genuine sense of joy that music is experienced with. To the INTP, the role of Fe in music appreciation remains mysterious. Music forms which may be useful for awakening the shadow are expressive forms of jazz, where extraverted Feeling is central to the music-making process, as well as some expressive Folk styles (Irish for example). Examples of modern classical composers whose music may appeal to the Fe shadow of INTPs are Messiaen, Copland, Schnittke, Bartok, Vaughan-Williams and, again, Shostakovich (Noting that Fe can be expressing a range of positive or negative feelings).The music of Shostakovich is a particular favourite because, alongside its developmental structure, it also yields an immense sense of passionate tragedy which awakes the Fe-shadow together with the Si-melancoly.
Inferior Function: Extraverted Feeling
Extraverted Feeling judgement, Fe, is the shadow function of the INTP, being by far the least developed of his faculties. Indeed, mature use of Fe typically doesn't begin to take shape until well into middle age. Feelings and emotions are regarded with suspicion and perhaps fear by the INTP and he may be keen to avoid considering or showing them. At the same time, he may experience a certain fascination for the emotional world, but he is desperate to de-personalize any thoughts on that area. He is compelled to subject his emotions to continual analysis, the Ti core literally suppressing the Fe shadow, attacking Fe with accusations of irrationality. He resists letting his feelings go, fearing that to do so would be to relinquish control to an unknown force. He believes emotions to be of a lesser substance than logic and his natural goal would be to conquer his emotions with pure rationality.
Much of the above demonstrates the immature and underdeveloped approach with which the INTP meets his emotional side. In reality, the extraverted nature of the INTP's feeling judgement means that his emotions, when visible, are pretty direct and easy to assess. Since the INTP normally wishes to hide his emotions; when they do come out, they do so in outbursts with an almost childlike innocence. There is a sense of all-or-nothing and, when visible, there is nothing enigmatic about the feelings of an INTP: indeed, shadow functions always seem pretty raw and basic.
When making on the spot decisions while extraverting with another person, the shadow Fe is often temporally exposed on the front line. Its immature nature may then result in an inadequate decision being made. The INTP may regret this later when the Ti core has analysed the events. Hence, INTPs tend to resist being forced to make quick decisions, for they know that their Fe judgement is their achilles heel. However, the resistance is sometimes weakened when Ne jumps in to back up the Fe. The accuracy of the intuitive insight then becomes crucial if the INTP is to avoid fatal errors. It is interesting to observe that the external world of the INTP involves a very free-spirited Ne-Fe partnership, while the internal world is a very clinical detail-structure-analysis Ti-Si combination. Hence, the outward behaviour of an INTP can contrast strongly with his introspective world.
For the INTP, emotions are seen as something mysterious and as uncontrollable as they are unalterable. Hence, the root of the fear of emotions is the fear that they cannot be controlled. Hence, when an INTP does finally respond emotionally to something, his emotions are indeed left uncontrolled, raw and open. However, when witnessing the emotional response of another person, the INTP intensely resists any similar emotion of his own. An example of this is when watching a 'weepy' cinema film in which some heart-wrenching scene is being shown. The INTP despises the attempt by the filmmaker to influence his emotions and is more likely to sneer than cry. This response has nothing to do with arrogance, however. Rather it is the INTP defensively avoiding exposing what he knows to be his weak point. Where an INTP may experience his own emotional response during a film is when he has had the chance to consider consequences of a element of the film. Hence, emotional response to media input usually occurs with a certain independence of will, which could appear enigmatic to others.
The mystery of emotion is also evidence in the INTP's use of music. He always chooses to listen to music which suits his current emotional state, be it aggression, warmth, excitement, relaxation or whatever. Hence, the emotional state is assumed to be an unchangeable, mysterious property of himself. It is easier to choose appropriate music than to attempt to influence this. People with introverted Feeling, Fi, however, will deliberately choose to listen to music which helps them change and improve their mood. INTPs could never do that. They feel an unpleasant sense of disharmony whenever a music style clashes with their emotional state. Indeed, it is remarkable how much attention they pay to their emotions when music is involved.
Sexuality is another important area which brings out the Fe shadow of the INTP. Sexuality fascinates INTPs in a similar way to music. Both have an emotional core which does not entirely yield to analysis. Sexual feelings often clash with the INTPs desire to control and understand his universe. They also clash with the desire for detachment and keeping a distance. But sexuality is the one thing who's natural power can break through any type dynamics. Hence, sexuality can play a big role in balancing the INTP's functionality. However, the INTP's natural approach to sexuality will still have true-to-type elements. He will be keen to understand and categorise his sexual responses. He will be keen to see first the generalities of male- and femaleness before any personal references are made. Nevertheless, in an intimate relationship, the extraverted nature of the feeling judgement leads to a beneficial openness and empathic directness in responding to the partner's needs, providing the healthy development of the Fe function is encouraged. Indeed, for many INTPs, an intimate relationship is the only place where the Fe shadow can really develop fruitfully.
The inferior nature of the Fe shadow shows itself, otherwise, in the lack of ability to show active empathy with people undergoing strong emotions. If he wishes to encourage the emotional person, the INTP tends to resort to giving T-based solutions to the problems involved. Often, the INTP does not really know how to empathize and may feel discomfort and helplessness, especially when he understands the rational basis for the emotions. He may become frustrated that the person remains unhappy in spite of hearing his T-based solutions. Much worse is when the emotional person appears to be being irrational. INTPs detest irrational emotion above all things. INTPs must take a very wide berth around people who appear to be irrationally, outwardly emotional. INTPs are very sensitive to such a trait and fear the potential excesses of the emotional attacks which do not yield to a defence based on logic.
In a similar way, INTPs dislike being in an atmosphere of emotional disharmony. If they need to say something unpleasant to someone close to them, they would prefer to avoid this task for fear of the disharmony that may result. This results from the INTP's fear that he does not have the emotional competence to deal with disharmony. INTPs never like doing something until they know they can do it. The best cure for this reticence is experience: to express his feelings, to live through disharmony and come out the other side with greater experience of his emotional side.
The feeling shadow is the fear centre of the INTP. He rarely fears any factual thing in the outside world, at least not things that will be encountered in normal day-to-day living. Logic stipulates that external objects or people which threaten can always potentially be dealt with by instigating an active defence strategy. Of course, the possibility of being left truly helpless leaves the INTP cold, for once the Ti core is defeated, the inferior Fe can offer little comfort. Resigned acceptance of the unacceptable is an anathema for INTPs. His typical response to helplessness is to hate the world which has produced it. However, the greatest fears of an INTP are usually ideas generated within his own mind. The problem is that the Ti-Ne axis is capable of conceiving very unpleasant ideas, which may be far from reality and even irrational. Ideas and possibilities assume so much importance in the mind of an INTP that they can override a common sense factual grasp on reality. Since the emotional response to an unpleasant idea is based on an underdeveloped function, it may also fail to bring a return to common sense. The net result is the fear that ideas alone may lead to self-destruction. This fear is irrational and is a cry of help from the feeling shadow when being overdominated by the Ti-Ne axis. This problem can be overcome when more balanced type dynamics result from increasing maturity.

i dont rlly agree with e music part
im not musically in clined
lol
maybe its bcos i cant do it well still
hahaha
whatever
but i do think that people who have diff opinions from me are stupid
muahahaahah
and i only respect ppl who are intelligent
and so far there WAS only one person
i really hate to be forced to do sth forcing will only makes me more rebellious
its true that i dont empathise with ppl easily
unless they've tried to work on e problem but cldnt resolve it due to external factors(which cant be controlled by human which is very limited)
and lastly
i love myself alot
and i enjoy to be different
:D

2009-04-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

I am extremely sad now.
Sad... ... ... ... !!!!!!!!! ... ... ...

u know that kind of feeling
Ive nv gotten this kind of feeling before
not even before my kao ji
but i just couldnt control my feeling
at that moment.
i wanted to cry

a long road
definitely tough
but they are meaningful only if we achieve what we want.
its really bad

i feel it
really feel it now
donno if it s too late
but
i cant help but feel sad

2009-03-29T22:01:00.003+08:00

got an urge to cry
not so intense
but i just think that im lost somewhere again

i can overcome this
yes yes yes

so weak...

too many beliefs
and just not myself
i also donno what to do with it

i feel so lost
everybody is moving on
and im left behind
i thought hard work compensates for everything?

i guess its time to change again

i shall quit watching all those stuffs
and focus more on what i should be focusing now
as a student.

yes
i am a student
at least im still aware of that

i often see to much in other people's eyes
but then...
i thought im selfish

i donno
i just donno what to do now
so lost
i need a goal,
some motivations
and alot of achievements

i gotta slp
:(:(:(:(:(:(
just unhappy.

2009-03-14T20:01:00.002+08:00

姓名:林筱薇
人品得分:3
评价:算了，跟你没什么人品好谈的...

姓名:付送佳
人品得分:88
评价:你的人品真好..做好事应该是你的爱好吧..

muahahahahhahahhaha

lolololol

siannnn
alot of hw for this hol
so i shall just procrastinate for one day
just one day
hahaha

2009-03-12T20:15:00.001+08:00

happy birthday ma
:D

I LOVE YOU GUYS :D

2009-02-24T21:32:00.001+08:00

I LOVE ZUO YUE :D

2009-02-24T21:22:00.001+08:00

I LOVE HAN HUI JING :D

2009-02-24T21:18:00.001+08:00

I LOVE CHARMAINE LIM XIAO WEI :D

2009-02-24T21:16:00.001+08:00

2009-02-22T19:49:00.002+08:00

JANUARY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental.Quiet, shy and humble.Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it.Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic . Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

lol
i donno why dont have nov
and why is july so long
=.=

2009-02-22T17:47:00.003+08:00

yo life
i'm very deprived!
yes i feel very deprived!!!!

maybe i've regretted coming to dunman high
i was blog-hopping
and saw my pri sch friends' blogs
wth
they are leading such beautiful sec sch life despite o lvl
so happening can.
and im stucked in this isolated world filled with cca and studies

oh man
this is so not right
i want to rebel!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont hate life
cos i have no life

never-ending tests
one after one
u tot u can relax and enjoy after taking all tests in the week
and u turn back, see the white board behind
realising that u have many more tests next week
next next week
next next next week
...

life will only get busier as u march on

i cant see the end to all these
i wont call them sufferings
cos this is the only thing i can do
and i must do
i must
in order to lead a more beautiful life than them
who are enjoying right now

human cant be impartial
u cant get so close to things
cos by then everything u see is magnified
everything
and there goes everything

but i have a dream
a dream that nobody knows
as nobody will understand
a big dream
realising
closer
each time i step forward
every day that passes

i am very ambitious
depending on its importance
i secretly wish many things to happen
and now im still dreaming
but i see it closer and clearer now
approaching me
approaching it

then i get confused
how
to achieve
to attain it without pulling in everything
can it just be me

but am i independent enough

i wish i can do these on my own
and the path is easier
smoother and straighter
leading me to prosperity
:D:D:D

i can see
and so i pity u blind ppl

i think im just venting my anger

2009-02-01T12:28:00.001+08:00

lololololololol.

pictures from last year

happy new year!!!

2009-01-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

Some INFPs have difficulty fitting into our society. Their problems are often a result of an unawareness of appropriate social behavior, an unawareness of how they come across to others, or unrealistic expectations of others. Any one of these three issues stem from using Extraverted intuition in a diminished manner. An INFP who takes in information for the sake of understanding the world around them, rather than one who takes in information only to support their own ideas, will have a clearer, more objective understanding of how society values social behaviors and attitudes. He or she will also be more aware of how they are perceived by others, and will have more realistic expectations for others' behavior within a relationship. Such well-adjusted INFPs will fit happily into our society.

reflect reflect reflect///

2009-01-11T13:41:00.002+08:00

yeah
sch has started for a week
and im quite happy with all the teachers this year :D
at least e main subjects

if nothing goes really wrong
i think i'll get the sub combi i want for snr high
and maybe end up in a good class

i like to be in a better class
cos e sch will assign better teachers to those classes
not for other reasons
hmm
hopefully i can grant this wish
yeah

another thing...
better not disclose it now

i hope i can foresee the future
and know what i'll be
where i'll stand
i wanna know my standard
how far can i go
and where i'll end up at

seems very far
but actly quite near
time is precious
...

2009-01-08T21:19:00.001+08:00

Your Mental Age

Result: 16 Years Old
A delicate blend of childlike enthusiasm and adult-style maturity. Well, a little bit of maturity. You've got a free spirit, and you love to have fun. Admirable qualities for sure. Just be sure not to have too much fun. You know, like, one-way-ticket-to-the-emergency-room fun. Oh, who are we kidding? You'll do just fine.

MUAAHAHAHAHAHHA

2008-12-31T22:56:00.003+08:00

happy new year
altho still have 1h to 2009
i realise ive been posting very little these days
just feel very emo
and wanna isolate myself
maybe im just dont have the high genes

erm
just got sian of blog hopping
and here to blog about my
new year resolutions

actly im not even aware that
2008 is ending
my last day of 2008 is nothing diff from any other day
except that i woke up really late this morn or afternoon?

back to new year resolutions
1. stop procrastinating
2.learn something new be it instrument or whatever
3.:D
4.:D
5.:D:D:D:D:D
6. :D:D:D:D:D::D
lols
actly i cant think of any
i dont think i'll follow any

sian so pointless right
yes yes yes

im looking forward to tmr
so i want my sore throat and flu to go away
pls dont follow me to 2009
can it be my last wish in 2008?

santa santa santa
why isnt there a mascot for new year?
can i create one?
i wanna name him
santanamagaymeeverythinganythingblahblahshit
no i jking
pls i dont wanna spend my first day of 2009 with sore throat
im secretly wishing something to happen

cant wait for 2009
but i love 2012 more
the end of the world
i wanna know whether its true

aiya
anyway
happy new year
and happy birthday to charmaine
if u are able to see it

2008-12-30T20:24:00.002+08:00

http://mv.baidu.com/export/flashplayer.swf?vid=6c71c35e6ec0a7a42b84dbf3

go and see this man
its so coolzzzz
omg

i love her hairstyle
i wanna cut into that too!!! xdxd

i wanna get a really nice haircut
anybody wanna cut with me?

contact me for more info
:D

2008-12-25T13:26:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS
:D

I wanna marry santa thanks.

2008-12-17T18:42:00.002+08:00

EH PPLE!
I THINK IM DAMN ARTISTIC
HAHAHHA
COS IM ABLE TO PUT NICE MAKE UP FOR MYSELF
SO TALENTED
HAHAHHA

SO YEAH

IF YOU THINK IT IS PRETTY

CAN U LET ME PUT FOR YOU TOO?

DOLL YOU UP

IMMA PRO!

and i think my hair is coolzxxxxx

2008-12-11T20:51:00.003+08:00

yeah
im learning how to put make ups
and i think im really good at it
:D

yeah

ive updated my blog

yoyoyo!

sian sian sian

i need money

i wanna do a lot of stuff

hmmmm

:(:(:(

i wanna finish my hw

:(:(:(

aiya

i got nothing to blog about alr

so yeah

bye :)

2008-11-19T12:25:00.002+08:00

so sian so sian

aiya
this blog is getting more famous
dont feel secured alr

world is so small
and everybody is so superficial
lol

i like wo ai bang bang tang!!!
hahahha
so funny

i dont know what to do now
sian sian sian

2008-11-18T11:50:00.002+08:00

i shall blog i shall blog.

okay
firstly i must admit that i behave very different
when im in sch and at work.
its quite a fun experience.
lol
hahaha
maybe its bcos of generation gap.
lol

aiya
so sian
i donno wat to say alr.

byebye
:D:D:D

i love my life
except that the fact i haven touch many of e homework

2008-11-02T16:09:00.002+08:00

somehow just feel like crying
hate this feeling
so my dream is
one day
i can be really independent
gain freedom

i hate to be controlled
and forced to do something

just like this

omg
ihateitsomuchsomuch
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

im smiling :D:D:D

2008-10-25T11:48:00.001+08:00

say cheese shiyi!

hohoho!!!

happy happy!!!

it's alr holiday!!!

hooray!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2008-10-23T20:02:00.001+08:00

2008-10-23T19:09:00.002+08:00

hohoho
EOY is over :D:D
altho did do really well and meet my expectations
but i also didnt put in much effort this year
esp after phys paper
soooo....
i shld better be satisfied with this

a bit regretful

learn quite a lot of things again
in this short week
and that gives me my inspirition to blog

howver....
it is not quite suitable to post it here

well...
met some disgusting people

altho i never showed it before
but im really damn damn damn unhappy with those ones who are really superficial, hypocritic whatsoever
LOL
and im really not good at blogging events in detail
so go on and guess
do a reflection yeah :D

hahaha
too funny
cos most probly the ppl who are guilty wont read my blog
too bad
that they will never get to know their mistakes
i'll make them regret
hehehehehe
\\\o.o///

let's WAIT and SEE
:D:D

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
:D:D

oh no
nevermind
:D:D

2008-10-09T13:26:00.003+08:00

5.。。：（：（：（：（：（：（：（：（：（
3 more papers
im very sad
very very ery very sad
T T
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omg
but i wont give up
i wont yes i know i wont
where are still 3 more papers

but how cld i just screwed this?
it is the last subject that i will screw
but it is the first this time.
first time too.

bye bye bio
T.T

2008-09-24T19:39:00.002+08:00

I had a secret.
And because of you,
I disclosed it.

Once,
A smile was all I asked for.
And because of you
I learnt to protect myself.

But I never regret,
Never regret of what I've done.

So don't feel guilty,
And I need to thank you,
For giving me what I own today,
And tomorrow.

Maybe it is too early to say,
But I'll still tell you that
One day,
Me,
Songjia
Will impress you.
All of you.

What kind of person am I?
Good question.
Even I don't understand myself.
Like who will.

But I love myself.
Everything.
:D:D:D:D:D:D

Go and Die please.

2008-09-15T20:25:00.005+08:00

seriously i've changed again.

so cold and unfeeling.

im going thro what you call hibernation.

lol

im a pretty fast learner i think

and i need to.

but just that i learn too fast,

the lessons do not seem to have lasting effect on me.

im stupid

behaving not like a 17 year old.

dont say u understand me

if i dont understand myself

if really have to say sth about me

just say that im unpredictable.

and i really really enjoy that.

once and of all

im telling myself

this

yeah

and i wonder if i can really accomplish.

im typing with 8 fingers.

saw an old couple on the bus

what the uncle did very was heart warming.

and life will be worth it if you can find such a partner

seriously

what im looking for is only simple and peaceful like

like what i once owned.

childhood is the most beautiful time

enjoy every moment baby.

2008-09-10T20:29:00.002+08:00

im back~~!!!!!!!!
wootz

i think i have changed, again.
im too lazy to think, to act, to even see.
but it is a growth isnt it? :)
people have to grow up one day
sooner or later.

changes are too fast for me to react
even i dont know myself now.

2008-08-23T18:24:00.002+08:00

waste my energy :D
you bitch :D:D:D

2008-06-20T17:09:00.001+08:00

bye.

to start everything all over again.

so that is the end.

expected.

2008-05-22T21:42:00.004+08:00

DELETED.

feel so damn discouraged.
damn.
what i am doing does not do me any right.
what if i leave?
lol
i bet the whole thing wont be come better.
not im thinking too high of myself,
but the fact is...
i dont understand.
why must you...
why must you...
everybody is unhappy
can we just talk?
seriously.

damn tired by this relationship.
everybody seems sad,
everybody keeps a distance away from others.
are you true to yourself first?
lol
now, start to question everything around you.
nothing worths your trust.
so what's the point?
coming to school in that sulky face is what we want?
school isnt what im looking to anymore.

wth is that.
conflicts.

have this feeling that im going crazy soon.
but i wont break down to tears
crying doesnt solve the problem.
i never tear for sichuan pple,
so dont even think that i will cry for this.
i wont.
i am strong.
strong to overcome this feeling.
yeah

i wanna scream out loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn no life.
life is so damn boring nowadays,
and i have this fuse inside my heart for very long alr.
waiting to be lit up.
i need i need to cool down.

2008-05-11T11:25:00.002+08:00

OVER
that's it.

there's nothing that I can say at this moment.
it is just too hot to touch and you might just set yourself on fire.
I can't change anything, but if you are understanding enough,
just like my darling friend, who always support me mentally,
things will be so much easier.

anw, tmr is the start of level camp.
quite excited, quite.
though it is the date that i've been counting down to.
level camp also marks the start of my busy schedule.
after level camp is a week of lesson followed by jixun and china trip.
won't be back until the last day of june hol
and the first week of school is elective.

one month isn't long,
time really flies
in fact, I still feel fresh and new to 3K despite living with it for half a year.
I still stick to the same old friends, know very little about other classmates.
hope level camp can help to bond 3K. :D

went to visit jinzhao with hj char and zy ytd.
god believes that we actly spent 3 hours walking around looking for his ward.
LOL.
he is really a dear classmate! so we bought him 3 packets of chips :D and a bottle of orange juice.:D
hehehe
hope he can get well soon and join us for level camp.
if not somebody will be so ********(muahahhaha) and somebody will be so T.T*********

on our way to bugis we built an imaginary pole.
damn funny
then laughed all the way.
we even created a malaysia 拳.
muahahahhahaha
then lunched at kfc.
char left for shangyin
and we shifted to lib to complete our packing list.
CHILDREN BOOKS ARE DAMN FUNNY!!!!!!!!
LAUGHED OUR ASSes OFF.
muahahahahha
go read THE GIANT AND THE BEANSTALK MAN!!!!!!
and there's a book called HUNGRY, HUNGRY, HUNGRY!

:D
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
TO ALL MOMS IN THE WORLD!!!

2008-05-04T12:16:00.003+08:00

totally disappointed by eds concert. :(
sian all the way until i bought contacts.
my contacts are no ordinary brand okay
in fact i've never heard of it before.
that shows how good it is.
dont even need to advertise.

i bet half of 3k will fail la
with a teacher who teaches nothing and spends 3 periods checking thesis statement
all of us will die.
i wont give it a damn if we dont have to do e darn expository essay
but the problem is i donno how to write, and what's the diff betwn it and argumentative...
sian.
bio concept map is due tmr and i left my bio tb in sch.
=.=

one more weeek
just one more week
7 days
just 7 days.
im looking forward to level camp
:)
that is my motivation man!!!
:D:D:D:D:D:D

2008-04-27T21:35:00.002+08:00

omg super funny. :D

got alot more :D

2008-04-27T12:52:00.005+08:00

Starting to love 3K. I can feel that the bond is starting to form :D Again, for so long. Another bond that I will treasure much much xd. Omg. team spirit can be nurtured, thats exactly how I felt on the way home after playing ball with friends on friday. I will not call them classmates cos everybody can be my classmate but only some will become my friend. And yes, I just have a feeling that 3K will become a much bonded family after level camp :D No one should hold grudges or be selfish under a big family. Most of us are not. We are genuine towards pple, friendly and pure. Omg I love 3K so much so much :D

Anyway, I hate bimbos. If you are from dunman high, pls tell your classmates and friends and yourself to stop acting bimbo in public? You think not tieing up your hair is very sexy and nice is it? I tell you it is not. In fact, it is super duper bad taste of you. Using RED rubberband to tie up half of your hair and walking around bugis is just as bad. I have nothing against red rubberband or something, but they just don't look appropriate in school uniform. Next time if you really wanna do that, can you please kindly take off all your buttons and badges? Stop ruining dhs's reputation.

What's what I really think lah. Altho myself isn't doing right things all the time but I just can't stand juniors behaving like that. Aiya whenever I see juniors like that I will have this urge to go infront of them and tell them off. 2 years ago, only minority behave that way, but now? It is growing to majority. Me and Charmaine were super agitated after seeing 2 dhs juniors at bugis ytd. Donno lah, super moody.

Just don't wanna study physics. sian sian sian sian sianzZZzZzzZzzZzzzzzzzZZZz
I want something new. Nonononono I dont mean this one, I mean that one. That one. That one. Do we have time for another one? Ohzzzz, it is back to square one. booomsh

It is not I'm giving up so something. But these qualities are just not there. Well, pple should be more understanding and humble towards pple that you really care. The signs that you show doesn't make me feel welcome. I'm not stupid or what. I can feel, even others can feel. Being there isn't for the sake of myself but for the whole community. You know how much I went through just to come? I can give up and leave all the mess around for you to clear, but I didn't. Can you grow up? From all your doings, the only thing I can conclude is that you are immatured, selfish, disgusting, petty and inconsiderate. What is your motive, LOL? You may think that I'm childish, weird and loud. So what? That is why my friends love me. If you don't want to be friend with me, can you just get lost? Seeing your underwhelmed ugly face greatly affect my mood. Super disgusted. Can you just say? Why must you hide, you toad. Hypocritic slug. You are just not my pretty, baby.

2008-04-24T18:55:00.003+08:00

aiiyayayya im typing these with eyes closed. im going blind soon :((:(:( cant even stand the light.
not feeling well. blahblahblahblah. omg lah, have to study bio and do help sheet later cos tmr is bio test. i hate blogging now.

errr might delete this blog soon. life is over perfect :D so nothing to blog. hahaha i refuse to share my happy moments :D

must go bathe first. must must must.
woooooowwww im looking forward to hols!!!
at least this coming monday.

chem viva
list 2 ways that you can do to conserve e environment
"err dont eat"
"flush after you pee 3 times and poo 1 time"
"dont bathe, waste water"
"dont fart, methane and sulphur will pollute e air"
"stand in the sun to absorb radiation"
"perspire more then will have more freshwater"

what can you learn from mr peh???
this kind of question =.=

"im a cow im a cow"

2008-04-20T21:29:00.003+08:00

officially declare that songjia is a mugger!!! omg!!! i've found my motivation once again!!! anyway, it doesnt have any link to what im gonna blog later.

wahhhh, recently damn sui, malu myself so many times!!! omg!!!

1. in the canteen.
hj-(tickles sj).
sj-ehh blue colour leh
hj-oh really?!?!!??!(trying to see).
sj-WAHHTHWHAAHHEHHEHWHAHAHAHLTHAHHE
ppl-wwahahhahah can join eds leh

2. 145 bus & bus stop. suppose to meet xiaozhou at her bus stop, which usually have a lot of students alight one.
sj-(see xiaozhou waiting at bus stop, oh shit!! why nobody press e bell?!?!?)
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
ppl-stares.
sj-hides face, faster chiong down.
BOOOOOOOOM!
(knock onto some pole).

3. paya lebar macs
sj-ehhh why they only 3 pple then order so much ah
char-their mother eating also mah
sj-err? i tot e mother alr there???
char-where got? she is elder sister

4. paya lebar bus stop
passerby-errrr miss your skirt
sj-O.M.G!!!!!
(omgomgomgomgomgomgomg malumalumalu)

sui sui sui sui sui
then my mother keep forcing me to drink chicken essence, i grumble. so today change to fish essence.

2008-04-20T01:17:00.002+08:00

shit lah. cant be bothered to download it finish. wtf adobe photoshop lags my com. damn frustrated. irritating software. irritating project. irritating. now it is half way through installing, so dont wanna waste my whole 3 hours downloading it. it better work, if not i will not install any adobe software anymore.

stupid adobe that lags my com, eats up my sleeping hour and makes me carry my laptop all the way to paya lebar tmr at 9AM. IT IS 9AM!!!!!!!!! so it means that if i dont download it, then i wont have to bring it tmr. =.= good. it is faster now.

arggghhhh i hate my laptop too. darn laptop that makes my eyesight deteriorate and my back ache like hell. and it also explains the amazing speed that pimples invade my face. radiation is bad for skin!

i think im too tired, thats why i always see things fly pass me. too tired, bad eyesight and viruses. i miss ytd man.

DONE!
=)

2008-04-19T17:55:00.002+08:00

OMG!
IM AS HAPPY AS A LARK now!!!
hahahahhahahhahahahahaahhaahha
YEAR 3 IS SUPER UBER FUN MAN!!!!!!
(without all those irritating projects that weigh alot.)

AND YES!
IM MOTIVATED ONCE AGAIN!
STUDY THE WHOLE CHAPTER ON TEMPERATURE and everything goes into my brain this time!!!! :D for the first time this year man!!!!!!!!!

other than that, im done with CME poster which is supposed to be handed up ermm donno how many donkey years ago and summarised all info on 清明节 into 4 min!!! wahahahahhahahahaa
but i have a feeling that it wont last for long.

I HAVE MOODSWINGS YOU KNOW YOU KNOW YOU KNOW!!! :D
hahahhahaha but im still a happy kid after all.

heck all those feelings lah, they are just illusions. i enjoy how it is like now, but its evil of me, i know.

2008-04-17T19:54:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!!
one horrible day has passed!!!
=)
and tmr is my fav day!!!
omg with 5 periods of chi and la lecture...
and dazu of cos,
it is paradise!
=D

im in love with 3K
hahahhahahha

2008-04-14T00:39:00.002+08:00

damnnnn
projects after projects.
lol
i even dreamt about them devouring my soul
woke up at 730 then chiong to esther's house do geog proj
returned home at 830, bathe then do bio mini assign.
and it is badbadbadbadbadly done
succumb to virus,
plz give me a day off.

2008-04-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING BIO MINI ASSIGN AND GEOG PERFORMANCE TASK!!!!!!!!!

recently damn no life. all the works are piling up infront of me.
but the more the work, the less motivation i have.
lol?
dont feel like studying at all.

still left bio prac
geog data response
chi donno what essay
and i seriously need to study physics.
im not giving up so easily although i got almost all the questions wrong.
cannot sia.

very very tired
HSK not as fun as i tot. dont have the dialect one, so not entertaining. was really sian cos the questions too easy and the place too comfortable to sleep. but it really amazed me tt i actly finished one 600 words zuowen in 30min time and managed to record smoothly for oral exam. tho felt very weird talking to the recorder =.=

i like this kind of friendship. (; and you (:(: just the right degree for me (:(:(: can we become closer friends??? (:(:(:(: we have so much in common (:(:(:(:(:

lets wait and see and let nature take its course. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

off to watch wo cai!!! ahahahaha me and wanyings fav show!

2008-04-10T18:26:00.002+08:00

moomoo
falling sick...
3K has inner circulatory of virus,
whoever step into e damn smelly, ants infested classroom will fall sick
:(
so i bet more than half of the class wont be running 2.4 tmr.
:)
muahahhaha
so i shall follow the majority
muahahahah
im very ill
moomoo

yes
you win you win.

crap
it doesnt tell you anything
why do you take it so seriously
pple have take initiative sometimes my dear
but i understand something better
but not going to say
boaahhahahahah
dont judge pple based on the surface
cos you will never see the underneath
hahahahahaahahhaa
my posts are damn chimmm
i know
:)

looking forward to may

2008-04-06T15:23:00.002+08:00

omgomgomgomgomgomgomfg

im a pig.

but this is life, isnt it?

2008-04-05T22:12:00.002+08:00

I think im very fortunate to have these friends.
really love them alot.
they are the only pple that i dont mind totally open up to,
the only pple that i dont need to think of what to say.
we are still close
despite not contacting
going out with.
so thats the meaning of true friend.
they are pple whom you can feel connected all the time
pple who love you as much as you love them
dont hide anything from you
love every bits of you.
time isnt the factor
maybe that is fate.

you dont really know me unless you are one of my closest friends.
but i bet one wont be reading this.
lol
im ego
cos im loved by so many friends.
muahahahahhahhaha

errr
i usually take 1 year to accept one friend
if everything goes smoothly.
:)

omg!
im looking forward to elective!
I LOVE GEOGRAPHY AND BIOLOGY!!!!!!!!

2008-04-05T15:34:00.002+08:00

okay
im whimsical.
=)

2008-04-03T17:00:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm damn unfriendly, dao, bias and insensitive.
I am. So what?
Everybody is living their own lives,
We have a choice.
We can dominate.

Sick of being fake,
putting on friendly face
squeeze a smile when you really don't feel like.
What is the point...lol

In real life, minority is minority.
If you ask me, I will sacrifice minority for majority.
I'm not cruel,
it is life.

Really pity those people who still live in the eyes of others.
Not worth it.
Life is so short,
so must make sure it is sweet.

Fulfilling one's own needs is always the first thing in life.
Don't say one is really helpful or something.
It seems damn hypocritic to me now.
Never do something that you will feel sorry for yourself.

I will still be loyal to my friends,
the people whom I really really love a lot.
But for those strangers,
I will have to say sorry.
Strangers as in don't know them very well.
Friends to me are people whom I can open up to,
but it is based on whether you are willing to open up to me too.

I will only do what I like from this moment onwards.

We are no sage,
Imperfect is perfect.

2008-04-02T19:10:00.003+08:00

YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS!!!
I HATE MY HAIR!!!!!
I SERIOUSLY NEED TO EXTEND IT.
my hair isnt growing,
it hasnt grown at all :(:(:(

yuppp

i want to extend it to this length.

i actly cut hair on impulse,

was on the way to shangyin

then i suddenly have this wanna cut hair feeling

so went straight after shangyin.

:(:(:(

i still prefer long hair

:(:(:(

cos long hair can become short hair

but short hair cant become long hair

:(:(:(

IT IS BETTER TO LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE.

CAUSE WE ARE HUMANS

IF YOU CANT CHANGE THE ENVIRONMENT

THEN CHANGE YOURSELF

2008-04-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

OMG
I'VE LOST INTEREST IN GUYS
THAT IS SO OMG!!!!!

WILL MISS MY BOY CRAZY DAYS
-__-

2008-04-01T19:50:00.003+08:00

ararrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it is getting darn irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
a state of mental disability!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to a state of physical disability!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what the hell it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am not going to pay a single shit bit of attention to this
and clear myself before everything gets out of hand
-____________-
that the ffffffffffff

well
withdraw myself and save you
muahahaahahahahahhahahahahaahahahahahahah
call me your benefactor

it is fact
too disgusting to be true
so i refuse to accept
:D
shut up

2008-03-28T20:52:00.005+08:00

HOHOHO!!!

SPORTS DAY!!! :D

OUR HANDS FULL OF LOVE FOR DHS!!!

guess which one is mine?!

(ans: 3rd)

VERY OMG?!?!?!

me and huijing :D

TWO CATS!!!

ME AND ZY!!!

THE CUTE CLOUD!

JIACHENG

WANG DUO

JIN ZHAO

MR TAN LC!

OUR DARLINGS!!! :D

CAM WHORE!!!

OMG!!! LOOK AT HER DISTORTED FACE!!!

SHE IS DAMN NOT HYGIENIC!!!

WE ARE SURPRISED BY???

AHAHAHAHA!!!

OUR ZI PAI SKILLS!!! :D

AGAIN!!! =.=

SEE!!! WE CAN BE PHOTOGENIC!!!

saw this reversed t-shirt at bugis.

woah very creative ;D

how am i gonna survive if that kind of thing happen to me once again?

BE SELF-ish!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

BALANCE!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-27T18:56:00.002+08:00

It has been really tired recently. Not only for my mind, but for my heart too. How much I wanna express them in tears...no. I can't. It does not do any good for health and resolves no problem. Illusion never change into something real. So does my dream.

It has always been a dream. I thought it came through, but that was just a pathetic illusion. Too real and well kept that I did not realise until now, today. What is suppose to be there is just a perfection, it is too perfect to come true.

Nope. It is not the first time anymore. I love you. I love every single one of you. That is just some setbacks that I have to face. Now, only trying to amend my mistakes, misconception.

STOPPED.

Totally deaf and blind.
In search of new happiness.
With a mind of child,
to start all over again.

IT WAS PERFECTLY ALRIGHT.

MY BAD.

2008-03-23T17:24:00.000+08:00

yes.
somebody.
everybody.
except you.

2008-03-16T15:18:00.002+08:00

曾灰心以为
我来错了世界
太多想法很另类
找不到人了解
你是我的魔力
想要勇敢就想你
你是我的魔力
心情不好就想你

i have you to be with
everything will be easy

i wanna say thank you
thank you
thank you

homework =.=
homework >.<
homework
homework!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE DOOM THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!

MUAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH

LET'S WAIT AND SEE.

ERRRM

NOT BAD

SHALL CONTINUE TO BLOG LIKE THIS NEXT TME :)

2008-03-14T23:30:00.003+08:00

tired...........................
holiday is more tiredsome than normal school days man!!!
everybody is doing homework at this hour... ...
i didnt know everybody has finished most of their homework
cos every night i will just sleep at 9 plus
at that time very few people are online.
so i thought they also havent start on their homework.

and one thing that i cant understand,
why is 3k getting so much homework...
its unfair unfair unfair.
seems like 3k is getting the most homework in e level.
have to do everything that others need and some extra work given by specific teacher.

left geog research paper
physics reflection
geog reflection
la violence package
and plus maths assign 3 which is what im doing now.

must chiong tmr and sunday

2008-03-13T19:37:00.002+08:00

haizzzzzzzzzz
very emo recently
just emo with the weather...

aiyyyyy
no time for everything
no time no time
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
;aldskghna;ldkjf

2008-03-09T21:42:00.003+08:00

im sorry if i had been cold towards you all
but that is called phobia
im scared to get close to ppl
im scared to be seen through
im scared to know pple better
im scared to make friends
i've heard of your stories
but you've never hear mine

phobia
phobia
phobia

but thanks for being patient with me
after the long talk with hj on friday
i've cleared some doubts

nevermind
conflicts always happen
and im grateful it is not me this time

no pain no gain.

shoo>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>!

2008-03-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

REFLECTION!!!

this is how Im feeling now
without tear, without nothing
most pathetic thing in the world is you dont have tear anymore.
so empty.

the only feeling I had when ms fang scolded me that time was embarrass.
nothing than that
crying never came across my brain that time.

i've grown.
but that is not what i want.
growth despite losing everything i cherished

felt nothing
felt nothing
so calm....
thinking what was going to happen after that???
actly i hoping to see her throwing me out of the class
it is just so minor yet so major.
losing my ability to cry.

no
nevermind
can still cry while watching 还珠格格
ahahhaah
that is called classic can??!?!?!?!
i watched that for donno how many hundred times

miss too many pple out of sudden.
galkfj l;hga;goawiejrf l;kadhg; ljoewaifjm
best friend man!!!!

2008-03-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

http://www.gangqinpu.com/user/songlook.asp?id=2190

piano version of 金蛇狂舞
woah very nice.
ahahha

...

2008-03-06T16:38:00.004+08:00

never thought of this before
so unexpected.
LOL
but you will be surprised too
not too long after this
and the reason is
I will never forget.
dont suspect my memory
it is not as lousy as you think
Im not going to forget
never.
never.

2008-02-29T22:20:00.002+08:00

after thinking through the similarities between slam dunk and prince of tennis,
I realise my obsession for them is just another act of boy crazy.
YES I admit that Im boy crazy.

I had wanted to become a boy when I was young. Cos I have no female cousin and
they outcasted me as Im female. How disgusting.

Now I remb I used to like detective Conan too.

Too many obsessions, too simple.
with great achievements, it is just too simple everytime.

Must work a way out man!

my simple obsession!

2008-02-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

one reason that I like prince of tennis so much is because it has some link with slam dunk.
:):):):):):):)
my fav!!!
actly I feel that slam dunk is so much better than prince of tennis.

Im tired tired tired tired tired tired tired !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5 tests in 3 days........
due to my very sick sickness, out of the 5 papers I only did well for LA.
cos it is the only arts paper and all required is crap, daydream is all you need.
flunk physics quiz and test.
took e quiz first, tot nothing cld be worse.
then after taking the test...zzz...im prepared to fail physics alr.
nvm, what I like about GPA is that you can kick out one subject.
so ya, let it be physics.
...but I began to worry after taking e bio test today.
crap! messed up hypotonic and hypertonic, my biggest mistake ever.
songjia ah songjia, must think of your future okay???

I seem to have no motivation in living, everything comes so easily.
Im contented with what I own now. But...I've always been a kid without ambition, more accurately should be blindly following others ambitions. I donno what Im good at what Im interested in...if I continue to lead my life like this, where will I end
up at after 5 years??? 10 years??? 20 years??? 50 years???

crap
crap
crap
crap

feeling damn emo now.
no.
my senses are coming back now
had been living without them for the past few days.

must cheer up k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
going to watch movie tmr!!!!!!
:):):):):):):)

i have a sick sense of humour

2008-02-26T20:19:00.004+08:00

wow...
yes now i know i have a SICK sense of humour
just find it amazing
LOL

got mc for two days
that means i will be missing la, phy tests tmr
e subjects which i have been missing out alot these two days.

knowing all these doesnt motivate me at all
im still a sick dog watching prince of tennis for the whole afternoon
even refuse to pee

shld i go sch tmr????????
nobody supports me but i know you will
muahahahahaha
cos you are as retarded as a sick dog!!!
gm food

From only you to MANY more.

2008-02-24T19:33:00.002+08:00

Ryoma！！！！！！
=D
prince of tennis!!!!!!!

Go Go Go!!!

lastly, my dear...
soon you will surpass me
bcos you are my dear
and you know how to make use of me
pretend not to know just bcos
you are dearer to me
a friendship for 7 years
I wont lose grip bcos
you are dearer to me

but...
from only you
to many more

nobody knows how heavy it is.

2008-02-11T18:19:00.000+08:00

Hey!!! Im sharing my joy with you!!! =D

The pics are not arranged in sequence...and im lazy to do. =D

Must thank these ppl who were around me to make my day a supreeee memorable one.

3K:

Charmaine--MY LOVE!!!<333>

Esther--POP QUEEN!!!alt u r not around today,,,,, but ty for e ahem ahem act =P

Huijing--BB GAL!!! ty for chipp' in for both my prsts

Zuoyue--DANCING DIVA!!! ahhahaha!!!

Yingying--ty for the rabbit =D

TS-- =D ty for e cookies

GYAF!!!:

Eileen--Mrs XXX!!! ahahaaha

Eunice--OMG可爱的 mrs XXX！！！ you know~~~

Huijing--<333333

Linda--Mrs ??? ty ah...for tellin me =P

Yijing--Mrs ?????????????????????????????????????? She is a ?O?!!!

Yihui-- =.= =.= =.= so gd to aim at

Many more tys to

SENIORS

EX-CLASSMATES

FRIENDS

who said happya bdae to me

you are blessed!!! =D

=D

last but not least!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FEB 11 BABIES

ESPECIALLY THOMAS EDISON =D

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

EUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU <333333333333333333333333333

omgomgomgomgomg

my ohsowonderful bdae

omgomgomgomgomg

and the chicken rice

pineapple =)

2008-02-07T16:19:00.000+08:00

happy new new year!!! =D
went to cityhall to celebrate first
then walked around e marina area.

Rested here:
Wanted to play this:
Saw this guy:

鼠年快乐~~```
and I miss my hair T.T

I love 6A'05 so much so much~~``` <3

had loads of fun ytd,

esp at e arcade =D

Cute Gerald =D

2008-01-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

AHHAHAHAHA
THE PICTURES WERE TAKEN LAST WEEK WHEN WE CELEBRATED BIRTHDAY FOR JAN BABIES!

I WAS SO ENTHU! CAN TELL RIGHT???
SO MANY PICS OF ME =D
ALTHOUGH IM NOT BORN IN JAN

HEHE
THICK SKIN
TSK TSK TSK... ...

AHAHA
JUST REALISED HOW RIDICULOUS PPL CAN GO. IT IS NOTHING LAH, MY SIS!!!!!
i wont take it against you one, but dont go beyond e limit =D

I CAN BE CUTE!!!

2008-01-30T15:47:00.000+08:00

Some pictures that should have been posted long long ago. First one is of Huijing and Yihui after sat performance; second one is me and Esther zilian in toilet; the last one is me and Huijing after orientation performance =.= like one month ago...OMGosh Yihui returned me money today!

Btw, me and Charmaine saw our dear classmate on the way to shangyin ytd =D

Everybody dces...C=

2008-01-24T19:26:00.000+08:00

Nothing to blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Means.......life is siannnnnnnnnnn.
container classrooms are so comfortable that I want to fall asleep every lesson.
lessons are just about teachers coming in and out.
its very sian sian sian...................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how you expect me to study in this kind of mood.......

damn...

must be changed my dears...

2008-01-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

hello!
very very long never post alr!
life has been so wonderful these days! woohoo!!!
so really nothing much to blog on...

love my class alot!!!
3Kudos <333
;D
nice classmates!
nice teachers...
ahhaha you know im not serious about this ;P
nevermind lor,
just rely on myself
and mug really hard this year.

haha can consult our dear classmates also
10 PRC scholars leh ;)

I LOVE 3KKKKKKKKK.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

I will never allow you.

You can scold me, you can bully me.

But NEVER EVER insult me.

It's very very wrong boy.

One day I will make sure you get it clear.

My job is to prove you wrong.

PROVE YOU WRONG.

Another thing...
without you there wont be me today...
A big thank you to you for bringing me happiness these 2 years.
losing you sounds like so unbelievable...
but it's time to say goodbye,
wishing you all the best for your journey after this.
YES, please.

2007-11-14T15:22:00.000+08:00

=D

life is nothing more than this.
sooooooooo.... ... wonderfully shaped.

going to say hi to my life in 3K-08,
although im not really ready for that.

its okay its okay,
anything it may be,
not worse than what i can imagine now.

supre contented with my life now
and all my prestigious guests
with a special thank to you --
thank you.

YL YL YL YL YL YL YL

2007-10-27T13:23:00.000+08:00

woah, really had a cute partner last sat.
muahahahahaha, couldnt stop laughing for the whole night.
so amazing!!!

today im going pan pac again!!!
hope can get a cute cute partner again!!!!!!!

hahahahaha
thinking of this will make me laugh.

a lot of things happened that brought me to another perspective of the world.
until now, my life is still full of innocence and kindness.
it is totally different outside.
should really appreciate all i have now before they are gone.

well well well.

I really really really love every single one of you, all the people i had spent time with before.
a smile, a hug, a convo and love.

everything de everything,
i want to say a big thank you for making my life a colourful one.

2007-10-20T12:36:00.001+08:00

going to Pan Pac!!!
yeah, finally after so many days in RCCC,
finally im able to work in Pan Pac!!!

today should be 3rd time working in TCC,
it was disastrous. esp the 1st day.
hahaha got scolded from manager and cried infront of so many people.
ohh unpleasant memory.
really hope i can get a nice partner today like i had on thursday.

had been doing food since started working
and im doing drink for the first time tmr
uhhh, nervous.
the work is tough but i still survived.

i told myself whenever i pick up the oval tray
that no matter what happens i shall not put it down.

doing drink for the first time ALONE.
dont know if i can make through the whole day.
for sure no enough energy one.

wanna do something bad... ...
hahaha
the food was nice in RCCC
esp the desert ;D

2007-10-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

results are out, and i think i did well.
except that hist and la are quite wasted,
read the question wrongly and ended up doing the wrong source.

anyway,
its over!!!
and i shall not celebrate until i get what i want.
$$$$$

woah,
i cant believe that im working this hard.
never in my whole life.
i have changed! :D

it will be paid off
sure it will.

jiayou jiayou ;D

2007-10-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

ahhahaha
today was spinning michelle's pen when she's still eating.
and e pen dropped into her bowl.
ahhahaha

quite happy
cos finished maths paper 50 min before hand
and managed to correct 1 error in e last 2 min.

but the ans is still wrong
ahhahaha
forgot to times 3.

shall not eat it again.

2007-10-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

EWWWWWWWWWWWW
why why why.
I feel so insulted.
why did it come out instead of what I was hoping to see.
yucks yucks yucks
3 more papers to go!!! woohoo...
didnt do well didnt do well.
below word limit for summary again.
hahahas.

觉得自己好失败。好像从来没想过的事情都发生了。
我觉得自己才是该被唾弃的，连我也讨厌自己了。

从前的很多很多想法都改变了。曾经以为自己至高无上，
现在看来都是失败的根源。

好久好久一直问自己，到底我为什么活着。
就算结束了，观众还只是我一个。
努力的挣扎是为了什么。

到底什么是结束？
那是一个新的开始，
突然觉得；就那么一下子，
好像什么都明白了，又不明白。

开始是为了结束，
结束又是为了开始。

没想过那么多，
也不敢想。

我没能力改变世界，
那我只能改变自己。

说了这么多好像是对自己的侮辱，
我都后悔了。

2007-10-04T12:28:00.000+08:00

Finished geog paper!!!
why ah why.
im hopeless lah. T.T
rushed through e paper and did like shit,
ms tang kept walking pass me
adding pressure on me hur.
wanna cry...
spent so much time memorising stuffs,
waste a lot of paper and ink too.

how ah how...
donno how to do summary...
i want to take triple science leh,
please please please///=/

2007-10-03T12:47:00.000+08:00

ARGH~~~!!!
DAMN SAD.
BUT IM LAUGHING.
AHHAHAHAHA
SHE'S CRAZY!!!!!!
HISTORY SBC QN READ WRONGLY
SAW SOURCE D AS SOURCE C!!!!!
DIE DIE DIE!!!!

HAHAHAH
MICHELLE WAS TYPING FOR ME JUST NOW.
BUT I REALLY READ THE QUESTION WRONGLY LAH
ITS LIKE 6 MARKS. LOLS
6/35 MARKS.
HOWEVER HOWEVER, NICE NICE MR ZEIN PROMISED TO INFORM MY MARKER, HOPE I CAN STILL GET A FEW MARKS.
I SPENT 15/105 MIN TO DO THIS QUESTION SO LONG LAH, ITS EVEN LONGER THAN MY 10 MARKS QUESTION!!!
HOW HOW HOW?!?!?!?!

WHY AH WHY.
ALWAYS MAKE THIS KIND OF MISTAKE, NOT THE FIRST TIME ALREADY. BUT ITS THE FIRST TIME FOR HISTORY.
I JUST GOT BACK SOME CONFIDENCE IN HIST AND NOW ITS GONE.
I THINK ITS JUST LIKE MS LING COMMENTED LOR, I MAKE HER WONDER WHETHER SHE IS A GOOD TEACHER. 2/12 MARKS. HAHAHA IM HOPELESS LAH.
REALLY TAKING GEOG NEXT YEAR. BUT DONT THINK CAN TAKE TRIPLE SCIENCES.

NVR MIND, TAKE DOUBLE SCIENCE WITH ME LAH

BUT IM NOT TAKING HISTORY SORRY

BOO HOO:(

TOO BAD LAH, I SUCK AT HIST. GEOG ALSO LAH

THEN TAKE HIST LAH, MORE INTERESTING

I DONT WANT LAH, EVEN THOUGH I DO VERY BADLY FOR GEOG, BUT AT LEAST I NEVER FAIL.

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HOW AH HOW.
TMR IS GEOGRAPHY.
ITS DAMN IRRITATING.
HOW COULD I MAKE SUCH MISTAKE>!?!?!

BYE BYE...BYE BYE.

2007-10-01T13:21:00.000+08:00

ohmy, now is eoy period and im still using com in sch lib. was supposed to stay back to study with michelle, but we both ended up reading books. that is considered studying too right? i really hate la to large extent, really flunk it. had been studying so hard for this month, argh, so not worth it. it is not much better that last year just that i stay back at a different place and supposingly doing different things. had brought all my hist notes to mug, haizzz, dont think i can study lahs. tmr is chinese, so shouldnt be worrying, but my chi compo is sliding down, boom! got supra low marks for recent works, yea, for maths also. im too old to stud leh.

hahaha i think i can unleash one's laughing potential leh. oh blahs. should i thank god? somebody is so funny, had been laughing at him for 2 weeks. and does he love lib that much? everytime i come into lib will see him focusing on the screen, is he watching porn? and got this girl came to study with him. ewwwww, cant stand it, and since last time i kicked his bag, he have been placing his darling bag on table. ahahha, donno what to comment on this.

i think im too stress thats why im talking crap now. is readers digest nice? i nid to charge batt. as usual,school campus is quiet during eoy period. it is hard to sort my feelings now, aiya, why am i blogging? or is this a blog? has been posting damn frequently nowdays, i dont like. the only subject that i am confident of is science, okay, only chem and phy. not good at bio, cant even rmb the words and functions. erm, for hist i find it okay...and geog also. actually theres nothing for me to be afraided of, im prepared for the worst senario. i see zhang dong liang now. ahhaha, long time no see man.

shalt thou study? shalt thee study. shut up shut up shut up. wilber pan has been exceptionally shuai today. i want to slp now, can shut up? greenwood pri sch, i love u. hehehe, forcing to like great shake-s-pear. shake shake shake. wow, cold.

=D l.o.v.e =D good luck for eoy my darlings.

2007-09-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

LA eve...

Why does everybody progress, grow, learn without me? I used to be in same group as you. Now I realised a very funny thing, whether it is coincidence or me who dominated, it is always me ==> the one who is not so outstanding seeking my own way out.
Why did you not wait for me, I feel so odd in this foreign world, not a single sense is with me. The things we used to say, used to do, they are silly though.

Once, we played in the rain, hid from adults, followed him... ... Used to cheating teacher, not finishing homework, stealing money from home, and all sorts of memorable moments. That year was my best year, with warm sunlight, cute people, helpful him, innocent girls.

Growth is disgusting, why cant we stay in that year, the same place, same sun, same mind? Have you forgotten about me? Yes, change is disgusting too, why did I leave in the first place when you persuaded me. If I stayed, these wouldnt have happened.

Broken promises, when I turned back and saw you, do you know how much I want to say no. Nobody understands me like you did, love me like you did. Somethings are lost forever, from the moment of my decision, it is fated.

2007-09-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

FAITH IN A FLOWERSometimes when faith is running low, And I cannot fathom WHY THINGS ARE SO, I walk alone among the flowers I grow, And learn the ANSWERS to ALL I WOULD KNOW. For among my flowers I have come to see, Life’s MIRACLE and its MYSTERY. And standing in silence and reverie, My FAITH COMES FLOODING BACK TO ME.
J stay happy and believe in yourself J
Jiayou!J

Jiayou Jiayou everybody!!!

I love MENG YI to bits!!!

Hahahahaha

Mon is LA paper 1.

Mug mug.

Anyways, I've done my very best for this EOY, and if I really cant get what I want, I might as well die.

Aaron is so cute, =D

2007-09-29T19:22:00.000+08:00

Woah.
It seems like they are not happy, everybody is. So ironic right? It is our way of doing so, but why did the outcome become like this? Nvm.
I really dont know what to do to make up for this. Or is it not me who is suppose to say these?
People always wanna get away from the past, but why am I brooding over it, thinking what if...

If you happen to see this post, please do your best for EOY and stay happy. Leaving you is not because I dislike you or something. Dont doubt yourself as a good friend. All rights, maybe your sadness is not because of me. I cant comfort you now, so please do take good care of yourself and do well for EOY.

Yes, jiayou everybody.

2007-09-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

Fell into an infinite world.

MENGYI : THANK YOU FOR CHEERING ME UP JUST NOW. YOU ARE THE CUTEST GIRL I'VE EVER SEEN.

haha was really depressed just now, stupid gaomiao didn't answer my call.

I really never understand you, to you, I'm just a friend who is funny, crazy and sometimes emo.

Ok. Maybe this is how I portrait myself.

When i said bye, I didnt really mean it. It was on impulse i think. However, however however.

You all can be happy together isn't it? Stepping back cuz I know you doubted me. So long ago, it seems like so long ago that I last concern and think so much of it. I thought it was okay, it was right to do so.

Now, I hate you.

This is how much you did. I never really hate a person before. This is how you treat .......... that in return.

No use saying so much.

I'm sad not because of the other one, but you. I seldom trust a person this much. Ya, I know its the same for you too.

A few days ago, or even a few minutes ago, I still felt the same way. Its gone its gone.

I never know, it hurts so much to pretend laughing. Its you who taught me how. taught me how.

I dont really know how people see me. And this time i know, i know. Again, its you who taught me.

Bye bye bye bye. Its hard to remove, but at least I will try.

So from this moment onwards, ME=SONGJIA

Please disassociate me with others.

Turn over a new leaf, since you say we are very different.

2007-09-03T11:16:00.001+08:00

It has been very long since I last postd.
Everything remains the same though.

EOY coming up in less than one month time and I'm still slacking, I can feel that everybody is mugging. Anw, it is gonna late.

What What What???

This is my holiday////////
And there are too many things for me to do, for me to miss, for me to love///

664355834

oopsssssssssssssssssss
its straight.
curl in making--> FAILED